sky / dra (***) / (**) mini

Faint stirring in my loins, oh!
how so devious of me to go on as before
when I’ve been all the way to the end and back…

I saw how the story ends and I saw
exactly when, too - and how. And why.
but I twirl and sway anyway
anyway

I sat by the window by the tree by the lake by the flowers
in the shadow of dead or dying things
branches full of rotting leaves
and putrid blossoms - flowers

A stirring in my stomach; untimely influence of a thousand restless souls,
dancing deep within me - dancing.
On my doubts.
The rhythm of my swaying sanity drawing a floor for them to rest upon.

Sky

I’m the thing you want to feed, the burden you want to keep. I’m the stirring in your loins, and all you can do is weep.
I’m the something you fear, yet evermore long to be near
Looking at me you might snear, were not your need of me so clear
I am light, and I am dark
I’m sometimes thought of as an art
I am silky, I am rugged
And you would never know too just how wounded

Justify your impulse, your desire to hold me
Justify your thirst, your hunger and your hurts
You can make all the excuses in the world
Pray to heaven, to hell, to the whole entire world
Still forever you will need
to be with me, to be mine, to be lovely

You may long for me to be ready
Yet never will you convince me to be needy
No, not that
Not your therapy, not your fix
Not your earthly little minx

I’ll be your burden, the fruit of loins not yet come forth
I’ll be your threshhold, your limit, the line you will not cross
I’ll be your love, your pain, your very ill-gotten gain

But yours I can never need to be,
No, not that
Not your therapy, not your fix
Not your earthly little minx

Sky

when I heard the woman moan, I thought
no. not like this.
but when later I heard her cry, I thought
let her be. let her go back to where she was

when she used to see
remember? she used to be, she used to see
her dreams vividly
let her be

chorus : the days they are weird, aren’t they
and the dreams, the dreams they are weird too, aren’t they
but neither, no darling, neither, is quite as insane as the
thoughts I had on the way back

darling, there was a time, once upon a time
when you could see too, through the dark muddy water
when you could feel in the lonely midnight hour
left stranded in the middle of nowhere, you could feel

but where are you now, you with your purpose and your road
where are you now, she asks
where are you flying to on your crazy magic carpet?
where are you flying to, darling

chorus : the days they are weird, aren’t they
and the dreams, the dreams they are weird too, aren’t they
but neither, no darling, neither, is quite as insane as the
thoughts I had on the way back

when I heard the woman moan, I thought
let her be. I wish I could say honestly that I thought
let her be.
instead I begged for it to stop

and well, darling, as you know it did.
and I begged myself to listen deeper
to the wave thundering in my belly.
to the sound of my ribcage becoming ugly.

chorus : the days they are weird, aren’t they
and the dreams, the dreams they are weird too, aren’t they
but neither, no darling, neither, is quite as insane as the
thoughts I had on the way back

chorus : the days they are weird, aren’t they
and the dreams, the dreams they are weird too, aren’t they
but neither, no darling, neither, is quite as insane as the
thoughts I had on the way back

Sky

spring gloom
spring bloom - m-o-o-n that spells bloom
who can tell anymore
who can say

spring moon
spring swoon - m-o-o-n that spells swoon
who can fight anymore
who can stand against the walking man.

Sky

Tom Cullen is a feeble-minded hero of sorts in The Stand, by Stephen King.
I’m stuck on him and wrote this.

Just as I stand here before you
- wide open , eager , breathing in the night sky’s whisper -
shimmering faces break the darkness to smile around my still form.

A shiver comes over me
- quiet , dreadful and cold -
the silence now disquieting my thoughts
unnerving my empty belly.

As the faces twist into view
their hunger visible, desperate and hopeless
I slip down inside my ribcage and sleep the fears away.

Sky